Summer Lovin´ (or not so much)

I´m going back to work next week, after six long weeks off I´m definitely looking forward to getting back into it, meeting the new kids, having a proper routine again, BUT I´m not looking forward to waking up at 6am, having a class full of crazy kids every full moon (yes that does happen!) Or staff meetings (The bain of my life)´

But I can´t help but think that I should be making better use of my summer holidays, last year I spent most of my time dying from the heat, laid on the sofa in my pants, and I vowed not to do that again this year, which I haven´t thank God but I still didn´t do a great deal.

I had great plans, I was going to do Yoga every day (which lasted about a week) I was going to learn French (yeh that didn´t happen either) I was going to write, write and write. I had visiones of me sitting in a coffee shop with my laptop every day writing THE book, you know THE Book, the one that we all have inside, that everyone says they´re going to write one day... One day...

Well so what did I do... We had a week in Portugal, which was incredibly beautiful, but I actually have no idea what i´ve done with the other five weeks of my time, cleaning, cooking, sitting in my husband´s office scouring pinterest for recipes and house decorating ideas most likely.

The trouble is that in Madrid in July and August, the heat is so unbearable that everyone leaves. Everyone goes to the beach. EVERYONE. Businesses close, your friends are gone, 90% of the people that you see in the street are tourists. And because we generally have one week away with the Spanish fam, we´re in Madrid the majority of the time and it´s BORING here in summer!

It´s too hot to be in the street, or in the house, or anywhere that doesn´t have aircon, no-one is here, there´s only so much internet searching and Modern Family watching you can do before your brain turns to mush.

So yes, i´m probably the only one counting down the days before I go back to work, but it´ll probably only be a few weeks before I´m counting down the days until the next summer holidays!

No Bun in this Oven

Right now, as I type this, one of my friends is in labour. It´s funny because until I met Mr. Millennial I never wanted the whole marriage and kids thing, I have 11 nieces and nephews, I work in a school and I never saw it as being part of my future, in fact I came to Spain as the first step on my journey alone around the world teaching English. I came here to do a six month TEFL course, met my husband two weeks later and never once thought again about travelling further. (without him anyway)

I don´t know exactly when I changed my mind on marriage and babies, but I know it was pretty soon after we met... I remember seeing him with our niece and thinking he´d be a great father.

And here we are, recently married, waiting to get the go ahead that we can go to the hospital to visit our friends and welcome the new baby to the world, and i´m trying to work out if it is an amazing thing to have kids, or if everyone tells you it´s great and rewarding and everything else but is it for everyone? Is it for us??

I´ve been asked probably a hundred times or more since the wedding (a mere TWO MONTHS ago!) when we´re going to have a baby, are we thinking about it? Do we want kids? when? my mother in law even thought I was pregnant when we suggested having a family lunch one Sunday! Also it doesn´t help that I work in a school and all the five year old girls think that getting married automatically means you become a mummy, I get asked almost every day if I have a baby yet and if not, do I have one in my tummy? and if not, when?! I hope i´ve explained that it doesn´t happen like that, and that first we have to decide if we want to have a baby, then when, and then it has to grow for a really long time. Five year old girls really aren´t all that patient!

The thing is, I went through about a year of really wanting to have a baby, I love my husband, I know he´ll be an amazing dad and I wanted us to grow our family, then we got engaged and I still wanted a baby, I probably mentioned it at least once a week! (God I must have been annoying, but he married me anyway!) Then we got married and... I calmed down a lot. (which Mr. Millennial is really happy about because he kept telling me to wait! Haha)

Also our sister in law is pregnant, his brothers girlfriend. It´s their second baby so the pressure is kind of off right now, and the kids in my class are REALLY annoying right now, there are three weeks left before they leave for summer and they´re tired, and we´re tired, so i´m re-thinking the whole let´s have a baby NOW thing. When you´re surrounded by three year olds all day, it´s kind of nice to be able to go home, put the telly on and not have to keep someone else safe and fed and clean... What am I saying, i´m married, I do have to do all of those things when I get home, but at least Mr. Millennial can wait five minutes or half an hour for dinner, whereas the kids in my class can´t even wait two seconds for me to give them a snack!

All I know right now is that we´re enjoying being married, and babies are on the back burner, at least another year free of nappies and vomit and screaming in the night, but it won´t stop me enjoying the cuddles later when our new nephew arrives!